I was born when my father lost his job, my mother raised me as a sissy, As a kid i was a little too lonely, so I made theatre pieces with my dolls, As a teenager I tried to do my best, as an adult I was totally confused, I had no other desire than to dance in a club every night, I discovered the power of being in trance just by moving, I fell in love with dance, but because I saw myself physically as very clumsy, I did’t dare to enter a dance school. I became a dance critic so I could see dance performances for free, I retired as a critic when i was 33, and started to become a curator for a long period of years. When i was 43,  I gave up the ambition to show my parents that they didn’t have to worry about my financial position anymore, it was the moment after my father died in my arms and he said he was, and would be always behind everything i did or should do. I left the secure jobs as curator and started to dance on stage, untrained, but with a lot of pleasure to show that there are more ways to dance in front of a public. Love and friendship became my biggest inspirations to make work, I discovered both as extremely beautiful and essential in life, but i found out that they also were not that easy to live to the fully. In the meantime I had grown a body of a bear and discovered that i had no discipline in me to go against that.

since i am working in the forest  i feel that this biography made me capable to make this piece in collaboration with others. It took time to trust my own intuition, and for sure it took time to give place to the intuition of others.

Every day we start the day by building a construction of branches in the forest, then we move very carefully, inspired by the stillness of the trees. It is our warming up, to get connected with our environment. I listen to the wind, am still amazed by the always changing sunlight through the leaves. I don’t get irritated anymore when the rain doesn’t stop falling and we all get soaking wet.

it seems the heavy days of entering the forest and the collaboration are over,  it feels that being in the forest together for a longer time starts to work in us. we start to rehearse songs, movement ideas, we get ideas for actions and I start to improvise with texts, before they must be corrected in understandable german

I hope it stays casual and poetic what we do. We must not overplay the forest. I take a lot of time to get the narratives in a right tone, I am afraid that I am getting too didactic in my words, as if i want to teach my audience something they must know. I just want to stir up their minds a bit by showing them a sense of beauty on unknown places. It is always nice when things fall into place which you didn’t expect before to happen.

The more i work in this project, the more i feel my spine and a potential flexibility to go with the flow of things.

The snake belongs to the forest and shall be listened to.